I’ve really isolated myself for today’s occasion.
I didn’t post my birthday on facebook, twitter or skype. I displayed it to be all private. I’ve only kept it on tumblr since well, on whim I guess.
I told my close friends not to do anything for me today due to my depressed state of mind and my school’s midterm schedule. I lied to a lot of people saying “it passed” or “it’s on the 25th”, or “I don’t even remember”. I’m telling my friends that I’m going to celebrate on Saturday so save all the greetings, gifts and stuff for that date.
In reality, I don’t think I am. I really don’t feel like it.
I would have gotten a lot of attention on those social media accounts above. I don’t know why. I just didn’t want it this year.
I didn’t want to hear “happy birthday” since, well, I wasn’t.
Today wasn’t that good of a day either. I woke up early, wandered aimlessly alone for a bit before attending the algorithms class and getting reminded how I don’t think I’ll ever be prepared for Thursday’s midterm.
I woke up to a bit of sunshine. Then it was cloudy and then it drizzled for a bit. It was cold. Not that it bothered me.
I tried studying. It’s just not working out right now. This material is not intuitive at all… yeah. I’m totally going to fail at the rate I’m going.